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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

16.06.2025 03:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Would this be the day?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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I think the readers, may guess!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And i lived it daily.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I never cut or harmed myself..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I waited trembling.

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Why do humans sweat while stressed?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

How does Arab culture and values differ from western culture and values?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I don,t even have a pension.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

When a black man and a white woman have a child, does the child become white? If a white man and a black woman have a child, does the child become black?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Ive learnt so much.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

If you could go back and rewrite the Legend of Korra, what would you change, and why?

Im still living with it.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was 9 years of age.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So, i spoilt her more .

My family never makes their pension either.

But ive been too sick for many years..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But, we were locked up after school.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

This is soul school!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We all went to grammer schools

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Comes on , in middle age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She was in good health!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was very sick at this time too.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She wouldn,t have been !

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were not on the streets..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I couldn’t, believe it.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I could never make a relationship work though!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I write beautiful poetry .

I have no regrets .

He knew the spot.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He resisted the act ,that day.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She married twice! .

I said to her

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

It was going to be , some day.

I will be 64.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

When she asked me how she looked .

One cannot live in the past .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Put me off passion for life!!

What did i know ?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She found it foreign!.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was scared of men, in general

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My life is so biszare .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Who then, do I blame.?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

So whats the point in blame.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

All the time i was locked up.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But it wasn’t much.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She loved him until the end.